The Q4 Experiment Is Complete
What I've learned and decisions I need to face.
I can’t do this anymore.
I believe my beta reading experiment for Q4 is done. I need to go back to only reading them when there isn't a time frame that puts too much pressure on my anxiety and my eyes.
It’s so difficult to admit. I mean, I love the books I’ve read and helped with. And the idea of putting more into the read in order to make some side money was the goal. However, I have to think of my health first. These headaches and dry-eye are not fun.
I already read so much, what with reading emails, articles, mail, our manuscripts, and books? Adding an intensive beta ready that must be done in a specific timeframe leaves my eyes no room for rest, except when I sleep.
Therefore, this is not something I can sustain. I will be keeping the Critique reads, because they don’t entail as much reading for as long. And I LOVE writing blurbs. So I’m keeping that. But those do not force prolonged eye strain on me.
I’m so happy people gave me the chance to try this experiment on their books. I did the best I could while I could. Will I continue to take beta reads and ARC reads? Sure - but these will be on my time more than anything. And I’ll be up-front with that.
I can no longer read like I did in my youth, before the eye cancer. Every time I see the light move over my field of vision from the tumor or see the dots on my computer screen - shadows left from the radiation, I remind myself that I need to keep focused on my goals… just… in… case.
I am proud that I moved out of my comfort zone and tried something new. I am proud, even if a little disappointed, that I have matured enough to know when to stop. This is not a defeat. This is me, learning. Please take a lesson, everyone.
When you have an idea, run an experiment. Make sure you can handle it. Because even the things you love to do can become a burden and make you have burn out. That’s not something anyone deserves, and it will often make you no longer want to participate in the very things you once enjoyed.
The concept was sound, the experiment failed. Time to take notes and move on.
I want you all to not be afraid of those words. When you realize you’re going to fail at something or simply cannot do something, take note of it, and move on. This moment is teaching you what you are capable of just as much as it’s teaching you what you’re not capable of.
It should also teach you - don’t be afraid to at least try something new. Treat it like an experiment. If it works, great! If not - learn something from it and either try a different method, or put your energy where it will be more practical.
For me, moving on in 2025 looks like doing the best I can with my other projects, all of which are already proving themselves. Look for more novels, me helping other authors, blog articles, and additions to our companion series.
If you need a Quick Critique or Blurb Help, contact me using my Rach for Hire Form.